When I was with the city of Homestead, (I only stayed with them eleven months)
I got an average of one letter a month from the community--letters of
appreciation, letters of merit, of some form or another. But my real rewards
didn't really come until I became an officer with the City of South Miami. Once
I moved to that department things just started flowing better and better for
me. I don't know why that is; it just seemed to be that way. And from about '82
to somewhere in the beginning of '84, I was nominated nine times Officer of the
Month and I received that award six times. I was nominated Police Officer of
the Month of June, 1983 by the Police Benevolent Association throughout all of
the precincts in Dade County, which are quite a few. That was very, very
rewarding. I really appreciated that award.
In 1983 I was nominated Police Officer of the Year for the City of South Miami
and that was my highest accomplishment of all. And it came in such a short
period of time, that is what everybody was so amazed about. In fact, it was
even talked about [that] I was the highest decorated police officer in the City
of South Miami in the shortest period of time....
So for four years you were a functioning working in-service police officer?
Highly satisfied with your work and, in fact, rewarded and commended by your
peers and by the community. What happened? What changed it?
In 1984 I was accused of a crime and the crime was serious enough to be
suspended from the force. Accusations of child abuse.
Out of the clear blue one day?
Out of the clear blue sky. I never knew it was coming.... My wife ran a small baby sitting service in
our home....
At that moment what was going on in the world? Were you aware of this
growing concern, particularly here in South Florida, Miami area, about ritual
child abuse in day care centers and all of that?
Yes ... I wasn't following it that much, but I was aware of it. I knew there
was some paranoia going on in Dade County because of it, but it just never
occurred to me that I would fall into this paranoia. It is just something that
you don't think about until it hits home. And when it hit home this time it hit
hard.
You were being reviewed by your department, Internal Affairs was looking
over the case, you were back on duty reinstated and you get a call that your
boy has been in an accident? He is in the hospital?
Right. Very bad. Several broken bones, numerous lacerations, unconscious. He
had to be cut out of the truck by the fire department....
And it is while visiting your son that you get a call from The Miami
Herald?
One evening ... The Miami Herald calls the hospital room. It didn't even
register right away that this was a reporter ... he started talking about the
allegations. I am listening to him, but I'm not absorbing what he is saying,
because I'm not believing what he is saying. And then finally it started
sinking in and I got very angry about him calling that hospital room and
bringing up these accusations.
I hung up the phone on him and went home. They started calling my home and I
got on the phone with them and I kept accusing him of just wanting to get his
name in the paper. He wants to write a story just to get his name in the paper
regardless of how devastating or whose life he ruins ... I told him at that
point, I said "You will have to talk to my attorney." And I gave him my
attorney's phone number. I hung up the phone and they didn't bother me anymore.
They called my attorney.
The next day there was a tremendous article in The Miami Herald accusing
me of sexual child abuse. And because of this, my department suspended me again
and when they suspended me this time I never went back....
What about the parents of the other children? Did they all stop sending
their kids to your home?
No, that is another thing ... my wife had baby-sat for nearly 15 years.
Hundreds of children came through my home. And when this article hit The
Miami Herald, people that she hadn't seen in quite a while were calling the
house, people were coming by showing their support. [They] just couldn't
believe that these accusations were about me. They were very supportive ...
because they know that the way the children have always been kept in my home.
After it hit The Miami Herald, my attorney wanted to get some of the
parents to come forward as character witnesses, even though I hadn't been
charged with anything. He was trying to get something started just in case the
State Attorney's office did pull some type of surprise. So he wanted to see if
we could get some of the parents to come over to the house and he would bring a
court reporter to my home and take depositions of these parents as showing
their support for me.
So my wife contacted some of the mothers and there were a couple of them that
did come over. And my attorney came there with a court reporter and these two
mothers that came over couldn't do anything but praise me and praise my wife
about the way that their children were being kept in the home. They said that
they had talked to their children and their children didn't say anything that
would show that any harm had come to them while they were being baby-sat at my
home.
And eventually you were charged?
Yes. Eventually I was charged.
And a trial date was set. Were you out during your trial, were you out on
bond? How did that work?
Well, when they finally charged me I was in my son's hospital room. My attorney
called the hospital room and he said they have a warrant for your arrest. One
of the mothers, who came to my home and gave a sworn deposition that nothing
had ever happened to her child, was one of the ones they got the warrant off
of. An 11-year-old girl who they said was being baby-sat at my home in 1977,
this was seven years prior. They said that this little girl was saying that I
molested her. She is 11 years old now. That is the one they got the warrant
on.
So I asked my attorney, "Do you want me to turn myself in?" He said, "No." He
said, "I want you to go and hide." I go, "You want me to hide?" He said, "Yes,
I want you to hide for one day. Do you think you can hide for one day?" I said,
"Sure, I can hide for more than one day. If I want to they will never find
me."
So I went to a friend of mine's home and I stayed overnight and the next day my
attorney met me. We went to a polygraph examiner's business, his name was
George Slattery. He had been a polygraph examiner for 20 years working for the
state ... I went to this office and he hooked me up or wired me up for five and
a half hours. He asked me every question that you could ever imagine and I
came through it with flying colors telling the truth. He said that he wanted to
make sure, because he has six children of his own, that I was telling the
truth. That is why he put me through it like he did.
When The Miami Herald story broke, they put you back on
suspension?
Yes.
You hadn't been fired or terminated at the point you were charged?
No. I was suspended pending the outcome of this investigation or the outcome of
the results of the State Attorney's investigation. Whether or not the
department still had an ongoing investigation, internal affairs; they never
came to me and told me one way or the other.
In retrospect did The Miami Herald story inspire the new
investigation by the State Attorney? Or did the state's attorney's interest
inspire The Miami Herald story?
I don't know who called The Miami Herald, but I believe that the
pressure of the media going to the State Attorney's office is why they picked
it up and opened the investigation again.
Did you and your wife ever have a talk where she said to you "Grant, I
believe I know you and I certainly believe you. But tell me the truth. Was
there ever any incident?"
No one in my family ever doubted when I denied these accusations, no one ever
doubted my word. No one ever confronted me and said, "Did you do this?" because
they believe me. They know me. This wasn't me. This monster they were making of
me wasn't me. Children were treated with utmost respect in my home. They even
called me, "dad", they called my wife, "mother". They used to tell their
parents "We have two mommies and two daddies." These children would cry when
their parents come to pick them up. They didn't want to leave my home. And when
they were at their own home they would tell their parents "We want to go to
Grant and Janice's house." In fact one little girl was packing a bag, she
wanted to live at my house. That's how well they were treated at my home. No
harm.
When you were finally charged on the allegations for which you were put on
trial, what were the specific charges?
They charged me with four counts sexual battery on a child under the age of 11
years old.
What was the nature of the battery?
I may be wrong on this, [if] my memory serves me correctly, they said that I
penetrated her vagina with my finger, I penetrated her buttocks with my finger,
I put my penis in her mouth and I put my penis in her vagina. Those were the
four counts.
How did you feel about those allegations?
Well, it's really, really hard to describe. I went into a state of shock. It
was very scary. It is something that you just never expect would happen. The
way these children were treated and then all of a sudden you are a monster of
the children, [it] is hard to accept.
You do agree that those acts, if committed by an adult entrusted with the
care of these children, would have been monstrous deed.
I agree with that. I agree as if I would have done those things, then I would
be a sick person to start with. I would probably need some medical attention.
Yes, it would be a monstrous thing to do that to a child four years old ...
You hid for a day, turned yourself in after the polygraph test. You were
fingerprinted, were you mugged?
... My family and myself went to the court house ... the State Attorney and a
Dade County officer, a woman came there to arrest me. My wife was there. And
the police officer took her handcuffs out and handed them to me. She says, "Put
them on." I said, "No, I'm not going to put them on. You put them on me." The
girl took the handcuffs from me and started crying as she was fastening these
handcuffs on me. She knew that I didn't commit this crime and she knew that she
was doing the wrong thing by handcuffing me.
The prosecutor is there, Howard Pohl, deputy of the State Attorney.
He was the Assistant State Attorney to Janet Reno.
What did he do? What was his role there?
He didn't do anything; he just stood there. He didn't say anything, didn't do
anything, he just stood there and watched while this police officer put these
handcuffs on me. He never said a word ... they wanted me to go to the elevator,
go down by myself, go across the lobby, get into this car. I believe they
wanted me to go alone because it would be less of a chance of some attention.
Me and my wife said "good-bye" and I went and got into the elevator and went
downstairs ... there were other reporters downstairs, they obviously, in my
opinion, were aware that I was there. They started chasing me with a TV camera.
So I kind of speeded up a little bit and I went on out the door and I jumped in
the car. Another officer in the car threw the seat back and slammed the door
and we took off.
Dade County Jail is just around the corner from where I was. He radioed ahead
for them to open the gate so that we could drive right in without having to
stop. The reporters chased the car all the way to that gate ... they videoed
through the gate as I went out of the car and went in to be processed in Dade
County Jail. ... all of the time this was happening to me I kept thinking "I am
supposed to be doing this. They're not supposed to be doing it to me." It's
just indescribable that's all. I just didn't seem real. It just seemed like a
dream. This is not really happening. I'm going to wake up. But I didn't; I
didn't wake up. It was real. But it just didn't seem like it. It seemed like I
was moving in slow motion.... And the longer I was there the
deeper the black cloud covered my head. It was a state of shock. I believe I
was in a state of shock not really realizing that this was happening. But it
was happening and it was real.
Did you then, or do you now, have a view as to why it was that this
prosecutor, Janet Reno, and her office seemed so determined to bring these
charges against you?
My opinion of this is of the hysteria and the paranoia in Dade County at that
time against people who baby-sat, day care centers, nurseries, people
unlicensed to baby-sit. So many people were being accused of this crime and, of
course, all of these people were denying these crimes.
Now they have a police officer and they're showing that it just doesn't happen
to the average person. "We have a police officer accused of the same thing. So
it must be true that all of these people that are accused of this really did
it" ... I believe that if I would have been something other than what I was at
that time, a highly decorated South Miami Police Officer, Police Officer of the
Year, they would have never charged me with this crime. They did it because of
the glamour, they did it because of the attention that they would receive, the
publicity the State Attorney's office would receive. Janet Reno's stepping
stone to where she's at right now. I was just probably one of the small pieces
of the pie that she used to get to where she's at right now. It did not make
any difference to her whether I was innocent or guilty, she had someone who was
going to attract a lot of attention to her.
I proved to them that I did not commit this crime. The child that they were
accusing me of never was baby-sat at my home.
And in fact you were acquitted.
I was acquitted of the crime at this first trial.
But it didn't end there?
It did not end. They were bound and determined to get a conviction for me. They
used the "pile it on" syndrome to get me and there was no way that I was going to
escape.
Who is the "they" led by the prosecutor?
The prosecutors led by Janet Reno.
What did they do? Did they go out looking for more victims?
Well, they found more. One of the other mothers who came to my home ... [and]
gave a sworn deposition that nothing ever happened to her child ... she is
another one that finally brought charges against me after the State Attorney's
office and their so-called psychologists got through with them. And I was
brought up on more charges and had to go through another trial.
In your view what was at work here? What changed their minds? What prompted
these parents to bring their children forward as accusers?
I believe that the State Attorney's office approached these parents and assured
them that these accusations were all true ... these parents, they're not
professionals. The State Attorney's office, they are supposed to be
professionals. And the average person who is told something by a person that is
supposed to be a professional, they're going to believe it. I believe that they
were brainwashed by the State Attorney's office and that's why they continued
on with the charges....
As I sit here across from you, even now knowing what I know and knowing even
the recent events, part of me still asks the question did this man across from
me molest children? You recognize I suppose the threat that for the rest of
your life people will be asking that question about you?
I know I didn't commit the crime. I can sit and tell it over and over and over
again, but you have to form your own opinion. The person I'm talking to, it is
his right to make his own determination. I can't force anyone to believe me.
But I am saying that and I will continuously say that I did not commit these
crimes, I was falsely accused.
But do you recognize that even if exoneration comes, even if you were made a
free man finally and forever, on some level you have been stained by
this?
Of course. This is something that will always be something that you will have
to continue looking behind you at. Even today's time when I walk down a street
or walk through a shopping mall, it appears to me that everyone in the mall has
eyes on me. I know that's not true, but it's just the feeling.
And sure, there are going to be times down the road when people are going to
probably be thinking "There goes Grant Snowden, what was he accused of?" The
average person will talk like that. But the people that know me will not ever
say that.
You were tried, acquitted, charged again, finally the prosecutors got their
conviction.
That's true.
You were sentenced to what amounted to spending the rest of your life in
prison.
It was a sentence that was put on me to never see the outside of a prison again
... the worst moment in my whole life. When they took me from the courtroom or
attempted to take me from the courtroom my youngest brother, he pushed the
bailiff away. He wanted to have a moment with me and he told the bailiff to
give us a moment to say good-bye. Of course, that's all it was too, a moment,
and I said good-bye to each one [of my] family at that point in the courtroom. But some
of the security in the Dade County Jail who I had working relationship with,
took my family to the jail chapel, and then they took me to the jail chapel
where I could say my good-byes properly, spend more time with them ...
When you turned from them in that jail chapel and headed off to
incarceration, did you believe it might be the last time you saw them on the
outside?
I didn't know what to think at that time. I hadn't been sentenced at that
point. I had been found guilty, but I hadn't been sentenced, so I didn't really
know what this judge was going to do. I had a feeling of what the judge was
going to do.
What did the judge do at your sentencing?
She gave me the maximum that I could have received ... I remember the exact
words of the sentence. After I had talked with her, my mother had talked with
her, other people talked with her, she says, "Mr. Snowden for count one, I
sentence you to life in prison with a minimum mandatory of 25 years. For count
two, I sentence you to life in prison with a minimum mandatory 25 years to run
concurrent with count one. For count three, I sentence you to life in prison
with a minimum mandatory 25 years to run concurrent with Count one. For count
four, I sentence you to life in prison with a minimum mandatory 25 years to run
consecutive with Count one."
Minimum mandatory 50 years in prison ... that would have put me eligible for
parole at 90 years old and that would have been, then the possibility of
walking out of prison at 89 years old, or being rolled out.
Did you have the chance to say anything to the court or to the judge?
At the time of the sentencing, yes, I said a few words to the judge. If I can
remember correctly what I said, I told the judge that as many times as I came
down to the courtroom while being out on bond I showed up in the courtroom each
and every time that I was summoned to be here. That was an indication that I am
not guilty ... I remember telling her that she was fixing to sentence an
innocent man.
Let me ask you the other part of my question about this moment: You are a
cop fixing to go to prison. That is a very particular circumstance that a cop
experiences in prison. It had to be scary. Were you frightened?
Of course, I was scared to death. Because I didn't know anything about the
prison system, I was brand new going into the prison. I, of course, knew
basically about prisons being a police officer, but living in one you really
don't know anything about it until you experience it somewhat. And yes, I was
scared.
Did you expect as a cop you would get any special favor, were you sent off
to any special institution?
No. I wasn't expecting to get any special treatment. From the corrections
officers? No, I wasn't expecting to get any special favors.
You were segregated from the rest of the population though?
That was for their benefit not for my benefit ... they took me to a special
cell block, which was an isolation cell block for disciplinary inmates and
locked me in this cell block. And being brand new when I went into this cell I
thought this was it. I thought this was where I was going to spend the rest of
my life in this little cell block. Because I didn't know about being
transferred to another prison ... I wasn't educated to this.
I'm looking around in the cell, there is a little stainless steel toilet and
sink combination. There is a bunk, stainless steel, no springs, nothing, with a
little thin mattress about an inch thick. A little stainless steel mirror
hanging on the wall, not even a real mirror. And it was so hard to absorb, I
just started talking to myself, "Why me? Why am I here? Why do they do this to
me?" Things that just started popping into your mind. [I] just laid down on the
bed there, the little bunk and put my hands up over my head and tried to sleep.
They kept me in there for two weeks. In that two weeks I kept trying to get out
of the compound. I didn't want to be in isolation. I didn't do anything to be
in isolation, I didn't break any of their rules and that is normally why you go
to isolation.
So each time an officer would come by, I would try to stop him. But at Lake
Butler the officers don't care. They just keep on walking. It's very hard to
get one of them to stop and talk to you. Finally I did get one to stop and I
told him that I wanted to make a phone call. He said "Write a request to the
chaplain if you want to make a phone call."
So I told him again I said "Look, I am not supposed to be in here. I want to go
to the compound, I want to go out with the rest of the inmates. I did not break
any of your rules to be placed in isolation." "No, you cannot go to the
compound, they will kill you out there." I said "Why?" He said, "You're an
ex-cop. Somebody out there might know you." I said, "I can take care of
myself."
I told him "Look, I will sign any paper you told me to sign, a waiver showing
that ... you're not being held libel if anything happens to me on the
compound." So this officer told me he was going to talk to someone and see what
he could do ... and he came back later and said that they were going to have a
special meeting and determine whether or not I could go to the compound. And
they did. They had this meeting.
Obviously you were ultimately let out into the population.
Eventually, yes.
Eventually you became just another prisoner, always a former cop
though?
That is correct.
Ever specifically any difficulty by being a cop? Were you ever
assaulted?
The only thing that happened to me in prison was a lot of name calling and
finger pointing. No one in the 12 years I was in prison ever tried to become
physical with me.
What kind of name calling?
... there were times, "There goes that baby raper." Hard to take, very hard to
take. You know, after a while when you're in prison, if you don't do something
or retaliate against someone who is doing something to you, then you become one
who is marked and taken advantage of. But I didn't retaliate against this. It
was names that I knew I was going to have to learn to give with, so I had it
set in my mind that it was just a label that has been placed on me and that
label is going to stay as long as I am in prison so I might as well live with
it. And that's what I did.
You went in the prison knowing nothing about life on the inside. You
obviously learned a great deal. Among others the first and most important
lesson I guess is how to survive.
Well, my survival ... I guess it just comes natural. I acted just like one of
them. I walked and talked just like a regular inmate. I didn't try to be better
than any of them, I tried to let them know that I was no threat in any way to
them. If they were doing something wrong, they did not have to fear me running
and telling on them.
You have this thing--once a cop always a cop--and that is the way it is in
prison too. I had to show them that I wasn't a cop anymore, I was an inmate
just like they were. And that's what I did. I got into different programs, just
like they did; different jobs, just like they did; athletic sports, just like
they did. I walked around with my head up, not between my legs. I carried
myself just like them; I would not let one of them or any of them back me into
a corner. Once you do that then they will take advantage of you.
Did you reach a point where you thought, "This is it. I'm going to be in
prison the rest of my life."
Yes, it entered my mind quite a few times. Every time you have something
working in court you always have that little ray of hope. Then slowly my
remedies in court started disappearing. Each time I would lose one, my hope
would go down. There were quite a few times that I would be laying on my bunk
thinking, "This is it. So far all the way down the line we received no relief.
So when you go into a higher court, the higher court judges will see that the
lower court judges have denied you any type of relief. So they are probably
going to do the same thing." This is what is on my mind.
You held out a tiny bit of hope?
Well, my hope came through my family. My family stuck by me through thick and
thin. They made sure that my ray of hope never went to a point where I was
totally submerged to where I couldn't see the surface again. They always kept
me comfortable in prison, they made sure I didn't want for anything ... they
always were looking for different ways of getting me relief through different
attorneys, looking for different attorneys.
Finally, after I had exhausted all of the state remedies and [was] getting
ready to go into federal court, my family came up with a team that believed in
me. They believed in the person and [were] not looking for financial gain or
publicity.
This was at a moment just as you truly neared the end of your
prospects?
It was at the end.
You were in all together for 12 years, wasn't it?
In that time did you ever stop being a cop here in your heart? Were you ever
in your heart and mind, did you ever stop thinking of yourself as a cop?
I don't know if I stopped or not. It's something that I never forgot. The
memories were always there. A lot of times in prison you have a great deal of
idle time and it becomes very boring sometimes. It seemed like the same routine
as day by day by day. During this idle time, your mind begins to wander. And
when my mind wandered it looked like a movie reel going through my face, going
through my mind past my face.
And when this movie re-opened we would come upon things that I had accomplished
as a police officer, it was like going in slow motion. And these memories might
be stuck there and I was hurt extremely when this happened. Because it just
seemed like this will never be again and it's something that I really enjoyed
and I wanted.
Did you ever have even a moment in your despair where you questioned
yourself and thought, "Was there something here I don't remember that I have
blocked out? Is it possible that I did these things?"
Is it possible to have committed this crime and not remember it? No, absolutely
not. How could a person do something like this and not know it unless he was
just totally spaced out on some sort of medication. Even though I doubt that
anyone could commit this crime without knowing it. I do not believe that.
You had been a cop. You had worn a badge and had a gun. And now you are on
the other side being handled, being processed, being told to go here, go there,
confined--all of the humiliations that inmates feel. Did you ever have the
impulse to say to the guards, "Hey, I didn't do this thing. I want you to know
this." Did you ever protest your innocence either to your keepers or to your
fellow inmates?
Yes, I did. There are no secrets in prison. They know everything that goes on.
There have been times when corrections officers would come up to me and we
would talk. They would ask me to tell them war stories of the things I had done on
the street. Then we would talk about things other than being cops and
corrections officers also.
I wasn't shown favoritism, but some of the corrections officers, we could
relate to one another because of the law enforcement background. I even had
corrections officers ask me if I could help them get through the police
academy. Tell them some of the things that went on and the easiest ways to do
certain things. ...
Let me bring us to the moment then when hope is not gone, but it's getting
thinner. Your various lawyers have exhausted all of your state options and you
are pretty near your last chance. This new group of lawyers goes to the federal
court and your fate suddenly changed. How did you hear about this?
How did I hear it? I heard about it over the phone. I was in South Bay
Correctional Facility, a privately owned prison. It was February 18, and we
were in the dormitory setting up tables and an officer came over the loud
speaker, "Will Harold Snowden report to the officers' station?" That was kind of
unusual ... I was wondering, "Why are they calling my name over the loud
speaker? What did I do wrong?" Because I wasn't at that prison long enough for
them to really know me. So I went to the officers station and it was a female
officer and she handed me this paper towel and it had my attorney's name on it,
Robert Rosenthal, phone number, call me.
Well, I knew what it was. I knew that this was the decision of my federal
appeal. The reason I knew that was because myself and Robert, we had set it up
that when the decision came down he would call the prison and leave me a
message to call him. When I received this message, I knew what it was.
You didn't know which way it had been decided?
I did not know which way it went at that time. And it took a while for me to
call the number. I took the paper towel and I just walked around inside the
dormitory back and forth, back and forth, trying to get my courage up to call
the number. Because I had been let down so many times in the past, it was
something that was, I couldn't be let down again. And I knew that this was the
last time.
I must have walked around for half an hour before I finally got up enough
courage to call them. I just told myself [that] the decision is not going to
change one way or another by me hesitating to calling ... and I called him and
the first words he said were, "We won." I go, "What?" He said, "We won," I said,
"My case got overturned?" He said, "Yes." There was an inmate on the phone next
to me and he heard me blurt it out, "My case got overturned." He stood up and
said, "All right" and he pats me on the back and he goes back to his own
conversations.
I didn't really mean to blurt it out. I got excited. And I was holding onto the
phone and I was holding onto the wall. My knees were shaking, my skin was, I
felt like it was just moving like the skin on a horse would move. I felt like,
"Wow! Finally. Finally they see it. They finally see that they were wrong.
After all of these years finally they see that they were wrong. And I'm going
to go free."
It was unbelievable. I had lost all rays of hope and then finally they see it
and I'm going to go free. It was great. It was the greatest feeling I think I
ever had. I got off the phone and the guy that was on the phone next to me, he
said, "Did I hear you say you got your case overturned?" I said, "Yes, finally
after 12 years." He said, "That is just great, that's really great."
And they all knew what it was, they knew I was a cop, they knew I was in there
for crimes against kids but they were all happy for me. They had read so much
prior to the case being overturned, I had so much great publicity, finally
people hearing what had happened to me, wrong the way they did it. The
unfairness of my whole story was clear across the United States thanks to
Dorothy Robinowitz.
By this time you had clearly come to understand, thanks to Dorothy
Robinowitz and The Wall Street Journal, among others, what had happened
to you. You had begun to understand that there was this kind of hysteria that
took hold down there and combined with political imperatives and other factors
that you couldn't control, you just got in the way of this fire storm.
That's right. I was someone who was wrapped up in the wrong place, the wrong
time. Hysteria in Dade County at that time, accusations that were fabricated
over long periods of time. And the great attention that they received through
me and the stepping stone of a police officer going down, I did this.
Prosecutors, Janet Reno, I did this. Crimes against children, we can't stand
for that. We're going to take them down.
At the moment of your liberation, had you been able to come face to face at
that moment with your prosecutor, Janet Reno, who was by this time the Attorney
General of the United States and her staff of prosecutors that put you in
prison for life, what would you have said to her?
Well, I would have told them probably nothing. If I would have come face to
them I would have probably wanted them to tell me what they thought now. The
same way with people asking me what I would say to the children, to the
parents. I don't want to have anything to say to them; I want to know what they
had to say to me for taking my entire life away from me. Twelve years in
prison. I lost my children's childhood, I lost my wife, my home, everything
that I ever earned. What have they got to say to me? They know they did wrong,
they know they maliciously prosecuted me and they sent me away for something I
didn't do. And I am not happy about it at all. I'm upset about it and I really
don't have anything to say to them. I want to know what they have to say to me.
That's the way I feel about it....
Describe for me if you will what it was like to walk out and put on civilian
clothes and embrace your wife?
Well, my wife wasn't in the courtroom when I walked out. She was in the
courtroom when the judge said I was going to walk out, but she had to leave. My
wife and I are no longer married. I asked her to divorce me years ago, because
of the situation. It was a situation where I was sentenced to spend the rest of
my life in prison. It wasn't fair to my wife to be out there alone. She was
having hard times, mother and father to my two children and the only work my
wife did for 17 years was baby-sit. Never [had] an outside of the home job. She
was in a vulnerable situation, she couldn't survive by herself. She stuck with
me for nearly four years. In that four years, numerous times I asked her to
divorce me and go on with her life. And she did.
But later on, after I was released from the courts she was at my mother's house
and we had a small buffet spread there. She was there and we embraced and it
was a great, great feeling to be able to hold my wife. Even though she is not
my wife anymore, she belongs to someone else. But we are still very good
friends, we talk all of the time on the phone. My daughter still lives with
her, my son has his own family, I even have a 2-year-old grandson now. I will
be able to contribute in the upbringing of him even though I lost my own
children's childhood.
So you still see your son and daughter now?
Yes of course, I see them every day. Talk to them every day. It's just the
greatest feeling in the world to be able to be back with my family now and to
be able to maybe get my life straightened out. Of course, I still have some
hurdles to cross, but with the people I have working for me now and the way
that they are letting everybody see what really happened, I believe that I will
soon be totally free.
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